Much as I try to tell HB to be open to changes, to have open mindset, I’m actually the one with the closed mindset and terrified of changes.
Work has it that I have to be transferred back to HQ (like it or not). I was told the arrangement will be on trial for a month.
Normally upon hearing this, one would figured out just bear with the one month and everything will be back to normal. Before this announcement, much hype was created for people who supported the change and more hype was created by people who opposed the change in particular, being affected by it. (ahem) Fiery words were exchanged, emails flew all over..the verdict? A trial was proposed instead of full implementation.
But some nagging feeling about this trial is going to drag on.
HB and I have discussed over this many a times but each time I brought it up, I feel uneasy about the upcoming change. The uncertainty (before mgt decided to do a trial instead) was horrible. There was no mood, dragged myself to work..super low morale..then as time got by, no news meant good news right? Wrong.. terribly wrong.
I filed in a request for transfer but I got (another) nagging feeling it was put on hold or held back without my knowledge (at least the people from the Pro camp should have courtesy to inform me personally right???)
The reason for requesting a transfer was I rather I be in charge of the change that affects me directly, than let someone else be spearhead. Even if I made the wrong choice of transfer, I can blame myself, not someone else right?
I’m missing the days that will be spent with my current team, the lunch time jokes, the little conversations..*sigh*.
I got a call from HQ requesting for a meetup later this week. Good news is I am on leave, bad news is, it’s going to be a nagging reminder at the back of my mind..and when I return, I will barely have time to bade my farewell.
SIGH!
